MONDAY, MAY 19
Been there and back...and lived to blog about it
I've sunk further into the depths of hell...went to the Baclaran Church with my mom on my birthday. Yep, I survived. There weren't even any bolts of lightning going anywhere near me. Spent my time observing people and looking at the architecture. The cobwebs decorating the length of the church's vaulted ceiling were a source of amusement, it gave the place a sort of rustic look like it was lived in (by spiders and birds, obviously). Also, it has one of the best acoustics that I've ever heard, the sound system was just the right volume...loud enough to get heard but not too loud that it drowned out the voices of the parishioners especially during the hymns. Most of the credit for this, I expect, goes to the vaulted roof that reflect the sound much like the panels in a theater. The effect was a whole and unified sound.
Why the hell would I go there, you might ask? Me, who simply do not go to church except for weddings and funerals, hear mass in Baclaran on a Wednesday, nonetheless. Well, it was a desperate attempt at a bribe. I thought that my parents, who have long since despaired for my burning soul, would think that a trip to Davao in exchange for the salvation of their daughter's soul would be a fair deal.
It's not as if I was going to Davao to make a nuisance of myself. I would be a great asset to any business trip to charters unknown. For one, I have an exceptional sense of direction and will rarely get lost. Two, I am well-trained in the art of communicating with people in different government agencies. I never lose my temper when talking with them and I am good at getting results without resorting to bribing even once. And lastly, I never go hysterical. Now what more could two middle-aged women (my mom and aunt) could ask for in a travelling companion? I should not have to resort to begging, they should even offer to pay me.
But...my parents are made of sterner stuff, I can see that I will not win in this argument if they're hiding behind the guise of fear. I can't see the logic behind their reasoning. Why is it ok for my mom to go and not me? I told them that I'd take the trip for a birthday gift AND my much-delayed graduation gift--my mom wanted to buy me a college ring (which just goes to show how we differ in putting value on things), I just said I didn't know how to order one and they forgot about it until now--my mother's offering me Bagiuo instead. Ha! I've been to Baguio, dammit!
Still waiting for a better offer =C
posted by decapitated at 12:41 AM - [Link]
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MONDAY, MAY 12
Profession: Job Hunter
Looks like I have competition for the Windangers Anonymous Award for Most Windang: Work-related Category. Go APWIL!
I've had the same sentiments about work lately, not that I've found work again or anything. Nope, still a bum last time I checked.
I used to think that I could do whatever I set my mind to, I still do, but I've decided to set down some parameters just to make my life relatively easier (and to keep whatever shred of sanity I have left).
1. Nothing short of a fabulous job offer will make me consider working in Makati, or anywhere outside quezon city at that. Any so-so paying job outside 1hr. travel from my house is not worth my trouble. I'd rather get a job in north caloocan or even bulacan, they're nearer.
2. I don't even want to hear the term staff houses anymore. No matter how in good terms you are with work mates, you do not, I repeat, you DO NOT want to live with them 24/7. *shudders* You will need a hole to creep into in a few weeks, believe me. The first few times I could carry on for a whole 7-day stretch but that was eventually decreased. On my fourth month on the job, it was down to a two-day limit. I was going home thrice a week and that was not good for my pocket since a transportaion allowance did not go with my meager salary. Ok, the food was free, but the bickering that inevitably arise in such close quarters is not worth it.
3. The pay is not such an issue with me as long as it is commensurate to the job I'm expected to do, my skills, and the frequency/intensity of migraine attacks that it induces. No matter how much I can learn from a job or the apparent benefits it promises, it's useless if I literally can't afford it. Internships are therefore out of the question especially non-paying internships under my former professors' firms.
4. I will not work in a place where ass-kissing takes precedence over actual work being done. I always thought that the padrino system was an urban legend, or if anything, I could get away with not dancing to its tune. It always amused me how people at my former place of work scuttled around the boss like she was some kind of queen bee on her scheduled visits at the site. This wasn't apparent when I was working at the office in QC (in fact everything was different at the office, I actually loved working there) but at the site in Cavite, it was a whole different ball game. It was there that I saw a boss literally being chased by an umbrella and a chair wherever she went. And here I thought it only happened in the movies. I can laugh about this now but then it was torture to have no one to talk to about it. It was like being stuck in the twilight zone.
Is it any wonder why I'm still unemployed?
A year has now passed since I graduated from college. So far I've been hired for 1 job, had 2 legitimate job interviews, took 1 exam, sent around 12 application letters through mail and 5 by email. I've bought 20 Sunday issues of Manila Bulletin and opened god knows how many job alerts sent to my inbox. The bottom line is I still don't have a job right here, right now. And I'm still not panicking.
posted by decapitated at 1:51 AM - [Link]
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SUNDAY, MAY 11
hahaha I win against the Ilon
Bengki's
Battle Imp
is
Asum
Backstabbing: 4
Dodgin': 7
Guts: 9
Magic Mojo: 9
Smackdown: 8
posted by decapitated at 7:48 PM - [Link]
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FRIDAY, MAY 02
What anime hue are you?
What anime hue are you?
posted by decapitated at 2:05 AM - [Link]
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linky bloopers
darn! i should've watched my links...i should've remembered that urls tend to change, disappear or just go plain whacko from time to time. sigh! i'm updating my links now...*slinks away in embarassment*
posted by decapitated at 2:01 AM - [Link]
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THURSDAY, MAY 01
Summertime blows me away
It's back to the movie houses for me tomorrow, X-men 2. Just forgot my m.o. on watching sequels...I should've found a copy of the first one and watched it beforehand--for continuity. Anyway, was meaning to watch Equilibrium as good old twishie suggested but just haven't got round to it...maybe on Saturday. Arrrgh...so many movies to watch. There're only 15 more days to go before the Matrix opening, there's Charlie's Angels Full Throttle, and everything else (am drawing blanks already but its summer so there's bound to be a lot more than my stagnated brain can remember right now. I blame it all on the heat.)
Haven't been doing much lately. Was supposed to go to Tarlac last weekend but I opted to stay at home and be house-sitter instead. Didn't want to chitchat with annoying relatives...with my present state of mind, I just might end up losing my temper and screaming bloody murder at an annoying uncle. That would have been entertaining but I didn't want to risk being too (in)famous around those parts just yet. My parents are now off to Zambales for two days. They'll be back tomorrow evening, some CFC stuff. They actually went to the beach today... shit! And I'm stuck here updating my blog. Sigh. Can't even remember the last time I was in a beach...oh yeah, I was in Calatagan last year. It doesn't count, anyway, since I was doing my thesis and I didn't get to swim or sunbathe or build sand castles or whatever. It wasn't even summer then...what's the use of going to the beach in January??? (ok, I got my thesis done...so what?)
The heat has been bothering me a lot these days but no migraines yet, thankfully. Just the occasional sniffles and sneezing, not SARS related though 'cause I don't have fever. Maybe it's just the dust or pollen--summer things. I think I'm allergic to it. Summer, I mean. Just today, my eyes have been feeling funny...like I've been crying my eyes out or chopping onions or something. And sleepy all the time. I could wake up at 9am, make that 11am, and still be napping in the afternoon if I didn't watch it.
Arrrrgh...I don't even want to think about job hunting in this heat. Dammit!
Oh, a happy thought! A happy thought! *lifts one foot up and waits for the fairy dust*...Finally got a decent picture of my cat Icy...in all his glorious cuteness. Took the picture months ago but only remembered to have the film developed this week. It's a pretty good picture except for the lousy blue bed cover background. Will post it as soon as I get it scanned. Sigh...having a digicam around would be nice.
Summertime blows me away
And summertime I can't stay
It's not sensible, but I'm desperate
I'm a part of it
-"Summertime", Moonpools and Caterpillars
posted by decapitated at 11:58 PM - [Link]
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